The neglecting taste.

after a long time,i finally post.

i am quite confused nowadays,i felt ignored by rona TT
maybe bcus i too close to may then neglected her.
so sry ar.i dint mean it u noe?i really don mean it.
i love to joke around,sometimes maybe joke too much...then make ppl angry...
once again,sry,i dint mean it too.
i noe the taste of being neglected.
i was once being neglected too,it was in band:
Since huishi,xianmei left [Graduated from band].i hadnt been veri close wif lowell,cc,xingyi and jasmine anymore...even wif liping in band,i felt lonely...
Every practice in band was like so dead to me.i gt no close friens to talk to,i noe tt some of my juniors hated me to core,maybe i am jus so dislikin to them.and i felt lonely once again.
Every band dismissal,i have no friends to walk out wif me,i was all alone.and all i can feel was loneliness.Even when i try to walk out wif liping and others,i would feel neglected.
During last yr school's end of yr holiday,when my sister get bak her result and opted in for my sch.i was so glad in within me.i tot i could finally hav someone to walk home wif me.But happy moment wont last long,my sis is more prone to her friends and she dint really like me.To her,i am jus one kaobei sis.I would like to ask,is there ppl hu has been hated by their own siblings?even there is,i believe its jus a short arguement between them.i felt lonely,again.
chinese saying: 老天爷对每个人都是公平的[god is fair to everyone]
i believe in it,becoz blessings is still by my side,i started to have close friends in class,rona,may,ellvixson,cheong mun,cheong how,seiwei,chinwei [sry if i dint name some of u out...but tis are the fews]
i am oso glad i was sometimes being concern by j-min,xinying,jiamin and qieqie.
thnks guys ((:
So if i ever neglect u,pls dun ignore me,i really dun mean it and i nv ever wan to lose a friend of mine.Just wanna let u all noe,i cherish friendship.

*to rona:sry ah friend,dint mean to ps u.((: