hais...rona seems to be ignoring me again....sian...maybe i gt too close with may again.....ahh!i felt bad....when being wif rona...i scared may feel tt i pangseh her....be with may leh...i scared rona will felt pangseh and ignored me....TT
wat to do?both are my best fren...they are like my right and left hand,..realli cant afford to lose any of them...but i cant kip both of them company at one time as well....i felt 左右为难....so whenever i am close to any of them,..i will make sure the other is fine too....

2dae go the civil defence thingy...i asked rona hu sit wif,...so she replied "liping"....so i sit wif may...i hope she's nt unhappy.....
saw her laughing away wif liping and meiying they all happily...i looked at her...but she nv really notice me...,i dint even hav a chance to chat wif her...nt even 1 sentence...quite sad...so i go tok to jiamin and qieqie...trying to get some of her attention...but failed to...the feeling was like...drop drop drop....
when we alight....oso felt the same thing....she nv tok to me .. )):
i did tried to tok to her....but nt realli a success....my mood oso drop drop drop...
see shelly,afiqah they all laughing away,taking photos...i kinda felt envious...
i thought "if i could be like them wif my frens too....how nice.."
when broading the bus home...i asked rona whether i can sit infront of her and liping...she noded her head and said "yes" ...i was quite glad...but later..she shifted place....then the gladness i had earlier on droped to the lowest....
then i was like emoing on the whole journey bak...

After we reached sch,...we go bak class tak bak..while i was packing my bag,...i heard rona saying bye to jiamin saying tt she was going to leave first...she nv say bye to me )): ...i wanted to say gdbye to her,..but she was gone by then...
Saw her at bus stop...i was looking at her...but she nv look bak.... )):
jus wanna say gdbye to her mah...
))':